Today has been one of those days where every smoke has been blissful…dammit. This is the mental demon that I have faced whenever I have uttered those brave words “I quit” and I get close to the self-imposed end of the supply. It’s hard not to put down that it’s what every smoker faces but I have to remember this isn’t about all of us although we all reach “that time” at some point.

I have read Alan Carr’s Easy Way to Quit Smoking three times. It is an excellent book and is filled with truths about smoking that are pretty amazing. Although it didn’t cure me (because I didn’t cure me), I would highly recommend it as an excellent guide and tool as I find myself mentally referring to the stuff in it as the voices in my head keep telling me to freak out.

Okay…today is a day of panic…that’s all there is to it. I think about upcoming events and being smokeless…I break into a cold sweat… or is that because I just had a hot flash? I don’t know right now. But I am finding great strength from the support I am receiving from some of my friends that I considered pretty hard core smokers who have quit… and dammit if they can do it so can I! Grrrrrrrrrrrrrr – that’s what I feel right now – frustration that I MUST do this and frustration that I feel frustrated… or is that another hot flash? Kidding! It’s not and I do but whatever. I AM doing it… dammit!

By Deb Elliott

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